Milky Bar Kid

Is it just me? Seriously? Is it me? Because not many other people I speak to seem to ever have experienced as much crap that I have in the space of 10 years or so?

I am sick of it. I am fed up of fighting. Just when I think that I am starting to get my head around something that happened 10 years or so ago, something happens and knocks me right back to bloody zero! I appreciate life will never be easy, it makes us who we are but I would like a little bit of...well, relief to just give me a bit of respite and a chance to deal with my ever mounting baggage.

I am not naive enough to think I have had the worst life. I know other have had to put up with much more. BUT why is is that I seem to attract people who are going to do nothing but hurt me? Nothing but betray me and make me feel small and worthless?

Sometimes, like tonight, I wonder, seriously, what is the point? And on nights like this I really am tired of fighting.

I just wanna lie down.