Ok.... Im in serious mode now....

Got into work this morning to find that theyve completely reorganised my division. My boss is no longer my boss I now have a new one.

So sat down with both of them and discussed my attendance, performance etc in light of recent events and was told in no uncertain terms to go off sick. Even in light of the new policy, they said it was evident I was struggling and it would be better for me to get signed off, recover and come back then.

Its been something that Ive been aware of but not really wanting to admit - you never really want to admit to being unable to cope. And Im not really coping and dealing with things as well as I think I should.

The insomnia is really getting to me and its affecting my riding. Now its got that serious and Im losing all sense of judgement even I have to admit Im not in a good way.

So I may not be around as much on the forum over the next couple of weeks.

I know you guys would do anything to help me but just knowing youre there if I need you is enough. I have to sort my head out and start dealing with the things Ive not wanted to face after all that stress. And only I can do that.

Its tough being on my own and thats probably why I went back to work before I was recovered properly and why Im in this position now.

If I get signed off sick and some proper tablets to start dealing with the sleeping problems I hope to see you wednesday. If not, will try Friday. I kind of need your company to help me get better and have fun. But it may be a while before you guys see me... I really dont know at this moment.

Lyn x

Best wishes.

[Spiderman]

hey Lyn, you know what they say dont ya?

What dont kill ya, will only make you stronger!!

You dont come accross as a timid mouse so use this time and energy to get yourself even better than you were before.

I'm such a dummy that i still didnt tell you about the Blackboard rubber thingy.... DOH!!!!

Please remind me on Friday, hope you'll be there.

Hope you get yourself sorted soon Lyn, feel free to call or PM if I can help.


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[rictus01]

Lyn, you know where I am, got a big bike that chews up the M20, give a shout if you need company.

still on a lighter note, plenty of time to get that tyre, then the best release is at hand.

Cheers Mark.

I love you guys.... means a lot knowing I have your support and help...

to be honest theres one thing I really need to sort my head and thats the SV... does the best job ever (well Ride did review it saying it was the perfect antidote to depression ). The CBF just isnt inspiring enough to get my head sorted... but then it is a honda

Im looking at a full 2 weeks sign off to start with. That will give me time to sort the tyre and start out on the SV. It will give me time to get all the paperwork together and start actually doing stuff to get this sorted.

I hope it sorts the insomnia. Im certainly going to take the time to sort my diet out... amazingly I have NO chocolate in the house at all.... I know eating properly helps me feel better but with my hectic lifestyle I dont and its a contributing factor to why I feel so tired all the time and stressed. I will also have the time to exercise more too, again something I know helps but something I dont really do.

so basically Im going to take the time to get myself better as spidey suggested... Just finding it hard to admit what everyone else can clearly see as it was put to me this morning.

anyway, you guys know me... a couple of days, the SV back who knows?... you cant keep me down for long...

Let us know if you need anything, im on early shift this week, and its a nice ride down that sort of way...

Dan

thinkin of ya lyn

Look after yourself petal.

Take it easy Lynne - sorry to hear it's affecting you like this.

Once you've settled a bit - I'm sure many of us would be only too pleased to give you an 'armed escort' into Soho one Friday soon.

God help any wayward van drivers if they cause you grief