Chris; I'm peeved at the world too, i have a lot of hang-ups about thngs in my life...but theres no need to be agressive and so headstrong. Not having a go, but i've seen that good things come to those who just chill, relax, and get on with stuff slowly and carefully, understanding each bit at a time.
Oh, and you are right in saying it takes balls to say sorry and admit you messed up. I think a few people are peeved here (there is evidence to suggest!!! LOL) and you are trying to sort it out; good on you.
Just be careful with your langauge in the future. For example, I've just completed a 4-year chemistry degree at the integrated masters level...i could easily make that sound like I'm something special...but I won't, because at the end of the day I might forget it all by next week
good foryou for having a go, but as you're discovering, the learning curve is very big. Hell, I've done 8 thousand miles on the road since buying my bike (jeez thats alot), yet I still have mahoosive chicken strips. No way would I wanna give racing a go yet, not even sure about a track day in the wobbly wobblers group!!!
Matt