Oh dear Shelly, sounds like you're going through a rough patch.
I agree with scooby and Paws. Value yourself highly and don't settle for second best. If your ex was 'the one', he wouldn't have disappointed you as much as it sounds he did.
Chances are, he's moved on with his life, so if nothing else will, let that spur you on to get on with your life too. Easier said than done. I know.
One day, you'll look back on this, and it'll all make sense.
