Sorry for the long post ahead..
Well, thought I might take the bike out today as it was a shiny day out, with just about the right temperature and no cloud in sight..
As I got on, I just couldn't properly connect with the bike and generally felt more loose then other times.
I took some back roads near where I live full of curvy parts. But unfortunately, the tarmac wasn't in the best of conditions. In fact, there were about 2 miles of really bad roads, with loads of bumps and potholes and full of loose gravel. Soo... coming to a bend, I slow down to a very reasonable speed (~40 mph) which was more then adequate for a bend of that radius and camber. But what I failed to properly take into account was the really bad tarmac.
Half way through the bend, the back looses traction and starts to slide to the outside of the curve.. I panic and almost close the throttle but actively keep my hand from doing so and keep a constant hand on the throttle while slowly backing out and regain traction before leaving the road, bring the bike to a stable condition and manage to save it
But after that bend, it all went downhill fast..
I just lost all confidence and focus and couldn't lean anymore.. I stopped at the side of the road and had a smoke to cool off. When I got back on, I wasn't completely ok, but rode slowly and almost got back to town safe...
But as I'm approaching the town, I get a phone call and pull to the side to answer. At somewhere around 5mph, I was on the side of the road and didn't notice the gravel... I thought I was almost stopped and pulled in the front brake a bit too hard. The front washed out and down she went!
Result : speed shifter lever broken, clutch lever broken, as well as the thingy on which you rest your leg. The left hand fairing also has a couple of cracks where the indicator is... The crash bungs I have are completely useless, as the owner before me made them too short
Conclusion : After an almost off, regaining focus is SOOOOOO hard. I'm still thinking about it and can't let it go. It was stuuuupid, I know, but couldn't help myself. On a side note, I'm glad I went down at such a small speed. Feels like I would've went down anyway and that if I didn't go down there and then I would've had a bigger off...
Well, that's it, Cheers everyone