Had a really busy day at work last night, so decided to go to Squires for a smoke and a coke to unwind. Sun was shining, i was on the boil - was going good.
Anyway, rounded the corner just before the cafe, to be greeted by a closed road, an paramedic car, 3 T5 police cars, and 2 vans. I back tracked and found an alternative route to the cafe through south milford.Whilst on route, i was passed by an ambulance heading towards the scene of the crash. I arrived at the cafe about 10mins later. Parking the bike up, i walked over to the road side (the crash was under the bridge about 10 meters from the cafe), and had a quick look what was going on.
There was a biker, on a stretcher, in the back of said ambulance, and they were frantically working on, CPR etc... anyway, a crowd developed to hope for the biker, after about 15 mins, the most depressing sight of my life.... and one which has changed my entire outlook on bikes - they gave up CPR, placed a blanket over his head and closed the door of the ambulance. The police turned back towards their cars, looking dissapointed. Another victim on Yorkshire's roads. Another family getting that dreaded call. Another fellow biker not returning home this evening.
Ive seen friends end up in hospital after nasty crashs, and its had no real affect on my attitude. After seeing a biker die in front of me, on minute being alive, next minute a bleeding, shaking mess, then dead, im completely changed. Im questioning whether its worth me having the bike, is it worth the risks....
Any body else felt like this after seeing something similar? How did you get over it? Its really getting me down... any advise is welcome...
Im not going to point fingers at whose fault the crash was, thats not what i need help deciding... as i know the answer already. what i need help deciding, is do i keep the bike now my hearts not really in it. Is it just a phase - will it pass?
