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Just been sitting here feeling sorry for myself and happened to look up at my desktop and sure enuff, a photo of my three wonderful little people, posing for the usual school photo. There's wisdome in your words ophic. Gotta keep on keepin on. Ahll probly chill out in a bit and get my feet back on the ground again just at the monent its all a bit squewiff if you know what I mean. I'll button up and get on with it and stop bringing you wunnerful peeps down. Sorry.

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No need to be sorry. And I'm sure I speak for the org when I say that we'll help in any way we can, and it absolutely doesn't bring us down. We all need help through the hard times.

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Thanx.

sookie.

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Hang in there mate!
Sure it's a rainy day now, but the sunshine always returns.
Life's going to be looking up just around the corner. :cool:

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I'm the ex-nearly-step-dad of three kids who lost their real dad in a car crash (not his fault) when they were 4 months, nearly 2 and just gone 4. Reel it in mate, you wouldn't believe the damage you could cause their young minds if the worst should happen. My kids are now 17, nearly 19 and just gone 21 and they still have problems coping with their loss some days.

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Hey hun,

Your kids need you and that will never change. Ive had some dark times in recent years, on my own with three, struggling to fulfill their basic needs, their dad playing emotional blackmail games with them and me trying to keep their little heads straight and happy.
Sometimes I have a physical need to get out on the bike, it really has become a full on addiction where nothing else will do, because it gives me a feeling of control when everything else seems to be spiralling out of my control, and sometimes as my confidence and ability has grown i find myself pushing my behaviour beyond what is sensible and 'safe' but i dont seem to be able to help myself. Even when i think of the kids to try and curb my speed the need for that extra little 'thrill' takes over, and buying a faster bike hasnt helped!!!

I guess im saying that i dont know whether you should stop riding for a while or not, i know for me it would make a dificult situation even more frustrating and hard but i do understand where you are coming from and why it affects your riding.

Whatever you do, love your kids and stay safe, the org will always be here, virtual friends maybe but friends indeed, and you can never have too many of those.

KJ xxxx

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Looks like its catching! Maybe we should start a singles club?

It looks like I'm looking at "pastures new" this week too. And to perfectly match the cliche, its after 7 years.

C

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Am really sorry for what you`re going thru right now Sooky... as everyone has said it will get better for you but obv you can`t see that right now. Whatever hurt you`re going thru it strikes me that there is still a sensible Sooky in there as you`re well aware of what could happen to you and I`d seriously suggest giving the bike a miss for a short while until your head is in a better place. I know this is blunt but your kids will be able to tolerate your head being a bit screwed up for a while but losing their dad who they love and rely on will screw them up big time and you can`t do that to them.

A virtual hug for both you and your kids and please... hang up the gloves for a short while until you`re coping with all this a bit better. Your kids have suffered a major loss in their lives already, they don`t need to be dealing with another one.

I truly hope you feel better soon and there will be happier times ahead. Take care of yourself x

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massive hugs to you sookie.. hope you feeling better soon.

ness xx

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hope you get back on your feet soon, as has been said time is the greatest healer.

remember, its always darkest just before dawn